JANUARY 2006: I have handed in my doctoral thesis and got my first job as a dramaturge at a theatre. It's the first time that I don't really know what I want with my life.
APRIL 2006: Yuri dies without ever really being born. Great sadness.
APRIL 2006: Andreas takes his own life unexpectedly. I have never felt so alone.
MAY 2006: My cousin dies leaving behind three kids. Her name was Leanne. She was in her mid twenties. I decide not to go to her funeral. I arrive at the wake and everyone is drunk and having a great time. I don't cry. I don't really feel upset.
JUNE 2006: Birth of our first daughter Pip Olina.
JUNE 2006: I am massively disappointed after being rejected by another drama school. In a fit of rage I destroy my room. My mother dashes in in alarm and I calm down again.
JULY 2006: Together with Martina, Richard, Eva, Hanna and skipper David we sail across the channel and arrive under storm force winds in Cherbourg.
AUGUST 2006: Out here, I cannot even begin to describe how beautiful the stars are, so far away from the polluting lights of other people.
AUGUST 2006: I am twelve years old and travel on a plane on my own for the first time. I visit my friend Anna in Morocco for two weeks and enjoy every one of the warm days.
SEPTEMBER 2006: I just want to run away, so I move to Africa.
SEPTEMBER 2006: During the holidays I work on Usedom where I kiss a woman for the first time. I fall eternally in love. But we part before anything can happen. For the first time I think about changing something about my life in order to be happy.
OCTOBER 2006: My flatmates and I give our first concert in our neighbours' cellar bar and it is well received.
OCTOBER 2006: In a Russian mafia-like restaurant in New York where I work in the evenings I meet J. Panetta, my most important mentor. She expands my vision of the performing arts and defines my essential approach to these worlds of theatre and dance.
NOVEMBER 2006: In a final meeting with the headmistress, the personnel manager, both lawyers and me, the headmistress lies quite blatantly and openly. While she does this, her eyes go bright yellow and her pupils dilate like a cartoon. I think she's about to lose her mind. I am told it is one person's word against another's and the headmistress's word carries more weight. I accept a premature termination of my contract. I leave the office. In the middle of street I feel so tired, I have to go into a department store to sit on one of the sofas.
DECEMBER 2006: Ross visits. The emotions of a whole year rolled into one week. He does not take me with him. I stay with the pianist.
DECEMBER 2006: My shift in the bar starts at 3 PM and finishes at 2 AM, then there is cocaine and laughter, partying, dancing.
DECEMBER 2006: I’m so incredibly happy to be home. Even though I had begged my father until the last minute to let me stay for another year.